the surliest girl
gonna live in these sweatpants. 
#lazycoutour #comfortpunk

gonna live in these sweatpants.
#lazycoutour #comfortpunk

beards. flannel. carhartts. fuck.okay. i’m done now.

beards. flannel. carhartts. fuck.

okay. i’m done now.

i am a sucker for a dude with a beard.#daddyissues

i am a sucker for a dude with a beard.

#daddyissues

yeahhhh. *drools*

yeahhhh. *drools*

imagine me doing a powerviolence cover of the gap band’s “you dropped a bomb on me”…

i feel really good today. less sick, emotionally well. i’m almost a month off cigarettes, i’ve significantly cut back on the booze-a-hol, & i’ve been eating a lot of dark leafy greens.

it’s warm-ish in milwaukee. i fixed my bike. i’m going to play wifflebeer in an hour.

ed & i are getting along better, too. our relationship will forever be a work in progress. we’re difficult people but we love each other fiercely.

so yeah. i feel alright. earlier in the week i had my yearly review at work & it went well. i even got a small raise.

life isn’t perfect & it never will be. but right now i feel pretty darn okay & i’m cautiously optimistic about the future.

it’s a swell place to be.

balcony. sunday. selfie. 
(soundtrack: geraldine fibbers.♥)

balcony. sunday. selfie.
(soundtrack: geraldine fibbers.♥)

balcony view. i ♥ riverwest in the springtime.

balcony view. i ♥ riverwest in the springtime.

lafto feels like a memorial site now. rip jared. much love from milwaukee. i’ll miss you.

lafto feels like a memorial site now. rip jared. much love from milwaukee. i’ll miss you.

at least i didn’t find out through latfo.

another friend of mine took their last breathe in new orleans recently.

his knuckles read: GAME OVER

but i always hoped he’d stay alive.

good-bye & godspeed, dear jared. i hope you are at peace.

sure do wish i had a partner who’d actively support my NEED to cut back on drinking.

i miss sobriety. mine, mainly. but also being partnered with a sober person.

i’m actually lonely for isaac.

living is hard.

someday i’ll be happy. or at the very least less miserable. it’s my choice. i’m in the driver’s seat.

i’m a driver, i’m a winner. things are gonna change. I CAN FEEL IT.

fuck.

i’m drunk. so drunk i just threw up. bright red blood. into the toilet.

i hate everything.

am i sexy yet?

am i sexy yet?

and i see his sword is as nerdy as mine!

and i see his sword is as nerdy as mine!